I hardly can admit it. A few years ago I was a shopaholic always trying to find something new to satisfy me. Did it make it happy in the end? No, it didn’t. Certainly not! I divorced and left all I had behind. Nowadays, having no income and not knowing what life has in mind for me I trust on my soul, surrender to its path and flow in the moment now. Embracing what I may experience and who I meet on this enfolding path.
This morning i felt that although life is very insecure, was tear dropping and even the moments I though I would break down I am still there. Baking a bread, doing my dishes and making one jar of jam of the fruits of my own little garden.
Do I long back to those days? I certainly miss some things and the process was grieving, harsh and very painful but I realized doing these “simple things’ in life it gave me more happiness than it used to be as a shopaholic who always wanted more, more and more…
Isn’t that what life is all about? Inner satisfaction, happiness and being aware in the moment what makes you happy…
MY HAPPY SOUL
By Irmgard Daanen